Thank you all for the support 🫂

Idk why they brought me back after surgery to the room wrapped in a baking foil like a burrito 🌯🤷‍♀️

But it was quick and painless. I closed my eyes when they were bringing me to the surgery room and never opened it again, I didn’t even see my doctors, I refused to have this picture in my mind 😅

I woke up full of love, wanted to hug and were sending hearts to my friends 💞

After few hours I was allowed to go home 🏠

Slept 4 hours tonight, haven’t slept after the surgery ➖no idea where I take the energy now to make this post but here we are ✍🏼

24.08.24
After landing in Paris, we were held at the airport for 3 hours. Police checked all our belongings and took our devices. Luckily I managed to call my mom before that so she wouldn’t worry. Then they let me and Mario (Pavel’s assistant) go, but kept Pavel in a police station.

25.08.24
Woke up disconnected from the world, no device, no idea what was happening. Mario and I stayed positive and went for breakfast, expecting Pavel to join us soon.

Around 2pm, we bought new phones. Suddenly, we were hit with the news: Pavel could spend 20 years in prison. Bloggers blamed me for Pavel’s arrest, spreading conspiracy theories. The stress was indescribable. A panic attack kicked in.

Everything came at once: Pavel’s arrest, lies and hate directed towards me. I had no access to my socials, phone, nothing. I couldn’t respond and just had to accept it all.

For some reason, I felt I needed to take a pregnancy test. Mario said if this were a movie, I’d probably find out I’m pregnant.

Sitting in a Parisian café, I took the test. The result was in French: “Enceinte 3+”. I ran back upstairs to translate. The shock on my face when it said “Pregnant.” I felt helpless, unable to run to Pavel with the happy news, as he was still unreachable.

Police asked me to come for questioning. My doctor told me not to go. He said it was dangerous due to the early stage of pregnancy and the stress I was already under. (Spoiler: Four weeks after, I agreed to come and spent 3-4 hours answering questions).

September
Month of acceptance, focus on physical and mental health, supporting each other, seeing all the magical changes in my new body 🤰

It would have been easy to give up or go insane, but we embraced this new reality amidst the uncertainty.

I never got my phone and laptops back. I was really enjoying magical Paris while being pregnant. In a few weeks I managed to restore access to my socials.

And then, another twist 🎢

04.10.24
The doctor said the baby’s heart wasn’t beating anymore 💔
It’s hard to describe the pain. We got so used to the idea by then. It was the 10th week.

05.10.24
Surgery day. It was quick, with almost no physical pain.

Now it’s time to heal 🕊

We managed to cope with so much at once. But it was too much for the little one.. 👼🏻

Выложила пару историй на русском - завалили милейшими комментариями 🥹

И как теперь продолжать вести на Английском?..🤔
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I posted a couple of stories in Russian and got flooded with the sweetest comments 🥹

Now, how do I keep going in English?.. 🤔

Healthy Food = Healthy Mind & Body 💪🏼🌱

Briefly: I've been focusing on a healthy lifestyle for quite some time now—exercise, maintaining a balanced relationship with food (no restrictions, I eat what I want), and fully avoiding alcohol and smoking. I also practice mindfulness. And for the past few years - I feel waaaay better and stronger 🤍

👥 Through conversations with many successful and intelligent people I admire, I’ve noticed their incredible levels of awareness and discipline. I truly believe these are two of the most important skills we need to upgrade and pay attention to 🧠

I've found the best nutritionist 👩‍⚕️who helps me become even more aware of what I’m eating and ensures I get the most out of my diet.
My requests: more energy, maximizing vitamins from food, and achieving beautiful skin, hair, and body 🌸

Here are some recommendations from my amazing nutritionist this week ✍🏼:

1️⃣ Start your morning with warm water! Don’t eat before drinking it.
2️⃣Chew slowly—at least 25 times (yes, I’m counting)
3️⃣Don’t eat frequently. The best option is 3 meals with 4-hour breaks in between
4️⃣Have a protein-fat breakfast with fiber and slow carbs. Don’t start the day with sweets
5️⃣Start lunch with veggies whenever possible
6️⃣Avoid large amounts of simple carbohydrates—this will help reduce appetite and prevent issues like acne, depression, and inflammation
7️⃣Vegetables are essential: they provide fiber, vitamins, minerals, and are great for your microbiome
8️⃣Avoid snacking out of habit. If you feel the need for a snack, choose proteins and fats, not carbs
9️⃣And yes, vegetables are so important that it’s worth repeating—don’t forget about them!
1️⃣0️⃣Don’t forget about cocoa! It’s packed with magnesium, antioxidants, and polyphenols, with almost no caffeine (almond/hazelnut milk, but not Nesquik, please :)

Morning 🌞

Have a lovely day today 💞

Remember to have positive thoughts & right affirmations! Do some sports & have a healthy food 🔥
Try to find joy everything you do today 🫂